A short break for me from fanfiction fandom

[yukitsubute]

Dear readers and friends!

I want to let you know that I won’t be online to write or read for a while (and I promise this won't be a real long time ^_^ It's my hobby after all) . But I lost my passion for writing during the last weeks, especially because I wrote for so many exchanges and requests that I had no time to write something for me. It feels like work for me now, and I don’t have fun reading or writing at the moment. I know this will change, but for now I want to stay away a bit. I want my hobby to give me the feeling of being relaxed, and it isn’t right now.

When I had stress in RL the first way to Livejournal was calming me down, but now it stresses me to go online and to know that I “Have to” write this or that, and I “must” read this or that. It’s not that I don’t like doing it, normally I do love reading and writing, but for now it feels like I said. And I don’t want my hobby to be a “must” and “have to” for me.

As I said, I need to find the fun and passion for it again, and I think it works out best if I take a break. I want to think about what I want to write and I want to go back to concentrate more on me again. That's why I take my time for drawing, playing video games, learning a music instrument and reading the books I bought ages ago. Writing and reading fanfiction will come back to my life, I am sure about it.

And next to all the stress, I have to learn for 2 exams, so I will run in circles next week. Maybe I will look like this:

But please if you worry, don't do it, I am okay. I just had a harder time in RL because of work and uni, so I don't have much power right now, especially because term is soon over.

(I just love this words)

I didn’t lose the interest in fandom or Livejournal, but I need a break now. It sounds moody and grumpy, but actually I am not. I just feel when I am forcing myself to write and read right now, I might lose the interest, that’s why I cut myself off here for a while. I had a lot of stress during the last weeks and because I felt forced to write and read I started being much more stressed.
And I am on holiday from 3rd of July till 10th of July, so there I won’t be able to post or being online that often.

I will be online to answer to PMs and comments, so I am not dead or far away. I just write this entry, because normally I am online everyday, and probably this won't be like this now. But I will definitely be back soon, so don't worry that I disappear here, you don't get rid of me. :) So I am also now alive, just as an information.

So for now I wish you a nice start in summer, we see each other soon (I won't be away for months or a year, it may only be a few weeks), get some sun and enjoy swimming. :)

*hugs*
Yuki

Comments

[sayarinie.livejournal.com]

thank you for the greats fic u have done and good for ur RL ^^ enjoy the summer

[yukitsubute]

Thanks for your comment. :) And for your nice words.

I won't be away for a very long time. Maybe only two or three weeks, but I am often online and post regulary, that's why I wrote this entry. :)

But thanks again for leaving a comment here.

[mssinachen.livejournal.com]

It doesnt matter that you dont want to write. :)
I think everyone agrees with me that you should have your fun.
Enjoy your live and I hope you get to relax very much.
Huggles and loads of love. ^-^

[yukitsubute]

Thanks a lot for your comment. :)

And I am glad that you agree to it. I wasn't sure if I was able to get to the point.

I won't be away for a very long time, it's just that I need some time now, and then I come back with even more power. :D

Thanks for leaving a nice comment *hugs* *love*

[mssinachen.livejournal.com]

Youre very very welcome. :)

The most important thing is that you have fun and that you enjoy what youre doing. If that isnt writing at the moment theres nothing you can do about that. :)

I really really hope you will find time to relax.

And since I didnt even read half of your fics I have enough to read anyway. Dont be confused if I start commenting on many fics in the nearer future. <3

*love* ^_^

[yukitsubute]

Thanks my dear ^^

I am back online, not with posting, but I am sneaking around again. :)))

When this week is done I will be able to relax. Then uni is over and I am on holiday. :D

Oh, thanks for reading my things. ^^ I am looking forward to the comments. <3

*hugs*

[miradawn.livejournal.com]

I get what you mean by needing breaks
sometimes it's to much stress
thank you for writing these fic's and I hope you have a nice break and pass your exams
I'll miss you but I hope you'll be back soon
bye!!:) "hugs kisses"(as you would say)

[yukitsubute]

Yes, it's really much stress right now.

And I think the break is/was good for me. I will come back step by step (especially because I don't want to learn :D)
I won't post after holiday again, but I make some changes right now, so yes...but I will post it in a random entry. ^^

Hugs and kisses, as I say, yes. :D

[sweetspicyhot.livejournal.com]

I think this is a great idea. Recharge--do some things you have been longing to do. So I am happy that you are making this decision. And one more thing, once you have learned how to play the instrument (what instrument is it?) can you record you playing it and make some sort of audio post? That is what I want.

Hugs--just have fun--not with the studying but with everything else.

[yukitsubute]

Yes, recharging is something good. I start being online again, I have to learn, so yes I am bored....XDD

I learn guitar right now, but I had so much stress, I didn't have time for doing it. X_X

I will write a random entry now, explaining that I will be back step by step and some changes I will make. :)))

*hugs* Don't remind me about studying....I have exam tomorrow and I didn't learn till now.....

[kame-kazu28.livejournal.com]

i really understand what you are going through (...same with me actually, but not with school but work...sigh)

GAMBATTE Yuki-chan!

^_^v

[yukitsubute]

I have work and school. X_X But work is killing me. 3 break downs in one month, I think it's my record....X_X

Ganbatte, yes. ^^ You too my dear.

*hugs*

[chong9489.livejournal.com]

Okay (: we will be waiting for your return and relax yourself yah? (: !

[yukitsubute]

I relaxed a bit, and I will be online again, step by step. ^^ (Yes, I have to learn and search for distraction. *lol*)

Thanks for your comment *hugs*

[romapi.livejournal.com]

yuki! get back soon

[yukitsubute]

I will be back soon *hugs* *kisses* my dear

[editsnail.livejournal.com]

Have fun, and rest as much as you can~
We don't know each other, but I'm reading your fics recently, and just wanted you to know I really like what you write <3
And I can totally understand you, so don't worry we will be here, waiting for you to return ^^ (Okey, I lied, I'll be waiting near a swimming pool while having sunbath XD)
And do your best with your exams.. I have one more exam to take too, so I can understand your feelings towards the semester ending, and just feel slightly the same >.<
Anyway thank you for your fics and I hope you'll be back soon *hugs * And also hope that the RL problems will fly away from you soon~

[yukitsubute]

Thanks, I am glad you like my things, it's really nice to hear this. :)
I will return soon. ^^ I am online again after some days off, so I will be sneaking around now and come back with posting in two weeks or so. ^^

RL is still almost killing me, but only this week, then I am on holiday and hopefully I can recharge my empty battery again. :))

Thanks for leaving a comment here. *hugs*