yukitsubute | Circle of Love - Chapter 9: Healing hands

Circle of Love - Chapter 9: Healing hands

Title: Circle of Love - Chapter 9: Healing hands
Pairing: Main pairing: Aiba Masaki/ Matsumoto Jun;
Side pairings: Ninomiya Kazunari/ Yamashita Tomohisa; Aiba Masaki/ Ninomiya Kazunari (one sided); Sakurai Sho/ Yokoyama You; Nishikido Ryo/ Ohno Satoshi; [past] Tegoshi Yuya/ Yamashita Tomohisa
Rating: PG-13 (For this chapter)
Genre: romance, friendship, angst, drama
Disclaimer: I don’t own the boys, but the story is mine. :D
Note: English is not my native language, so I'm sorry for mistakes
Summary: Love can go strange ways - and finding together can become the most difficult thing, especially when bad coincidences are largely responisible for it....
Note 2: Sorry for the cliff hanger *lol* and this is probably the penultimate chapter. ^_^

Nino walked out of the cafe and walked down the street. After a while he remembered about the message he got and put out his mobile. He didn’t know the number but when he started to read the message he knew from whom it was.

Hey Nino!

Can we meet up today?

7pm – Park next to my apartment?

Nino closed his eyes and answered

Sure, I will be there, Nino

A few hours later Nino sat in the park and waited for the other one. He couldn’t say what he was feeling towards him, but he couldn’t deny that there was something jumping up and down in his belly when he thought of Yamapi. After a while he saw Yamapi walking up to him and he could feel his heart beat a bit faster.

Somehow he couldn’t believe it, a few hours ago he swore that he was in love with Aiba, and now he didn’t know what he felt. It was like various things started to mix up in his body, and he needed some time to think about everything, but otherwise he longed for love and the feeling of being loved. He didn’t know if Yamapi could give this to him, nor did he know what the other one really felt, because it was only a single kiss, and maybe he was interpreting too much in this situation and Yamapi only wanted to apologize and everyone would go his way.

Yamapi reached the bench and sat down next to Nino without saying a word. Nino knitted his eyebrows and looked at him: “Hey Pi”.

“Hey”, Yamapi answered, still looking on the lake. For some minutes they sat next to each other and just looked on the water in front of them.

“Nino, I wanted to talk about yesterday”, Pi started after a while, making Nino wincing because of the sudden noise. He turned around and looked into Pi’s eyes. It was like a sudden blizzard hitting him, when he knew that he had to try it, he had to forget about the past and past feelings and searching for someone new. And maybe Pi could be the one he was searching for.

“I feel sorry, but somehow I was caught by the situation, and I don’t know…”, Pi started but didn’t know what he should say.

“You know Pi, to kiss someone is no crime, and at least I have no relationship right now, so it’s even no betraying or something in this way. I was just shocked, because I never thought that you’d do such a thing, and that’s why I ran away.”, Nino answered and smiled slightly.

“You still love Aiba, did you?”, Pi wanted to know. Nino closed his eyes and smiled when he said: “No, not really. I just thought I’d do, but somehow it was like building a safety around me. I knew I couldn’t get him anymore, and it was easier to suffer in this way, than falling love with someone else and maybe get hurt again. I think I fooled myself. And you Pi? Why were you with him for such a long time?”

“I don’t know…I think we were in love, but somehow we got used to each other and the everyday life caught us. And before we realized that we weren’t in love anymore, we just stayed together and suppressed the reality. I just woke up when I saw him there with this other guy. It wasn’t the fact that I was jealous, no, it was exactly the other way. I felt nothing, no anger; no suffer, no pain, nothing. I didn’t care about it. And that’s why I broke up now.”, Pi answered and looked and Nino.

A silence appeared again till Nino started to talk: “And now?”

“I don’t know, let’s say we try it, but in a slow way?”, Pi asked silently.

“Sounds good, so we can see if it fits or not”, Nino answered.

Pi took Nino’s hand and stroked softly across his palm. Nino felt a warm feeling in him, it was the beginning of dissolving from old emotions and starting to make a step in a new future.

Pi looked at Nino and kissed him when he looked at him. He didn’t know if he was deep in love, but he started to love him, and feelings had to grow, that’s what he thought. It was his start in a new life and love.

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“I am on my way now”, Jun said and took the key from the cupboard. “I will be back late at night, so don’t open to anyone, ne, Masa-chan”, he added. Aiba pricked out his tongue and pouted: “I am not a baby, Jun. I can look for myself”. Jun only laughed and went out of the door.

Aiba watched TV till he felt his eyes got sleepy and right before he fell asleep in the living room he went back to the bed and fell asleep immediately. He didn’t recognize Jun coming back at home late at night.

Oh no…my clothes are in the sleeping room…Jun closed his eyes and cursed himself. He sneaked quietly into the room and tried not to make any kind of noise. Aiba was sleeping and Jun could see a small smile on the other one’s face. He couldn’t resist and walked up to the bed, stroking softly above Aiba’s cheek and tried not to touch a wound. He shook his head and took his clothes before he went back to the living room.

He stayed awake for a long time, thinking of everything. He knew he had to talk about his feelings sooner or later, but he normally didn’t do this. He thought of his past relationships, and he knew that he never felt like he did now. Not only that he liked the boy, he really was in love, and he wanted to protect him in every single moment, and he want to kiss him in every single moment.
Shit…Jun turned around and put his head in the pillow. He never started crying because of a guy, and now…tired and exhausted he fell asleep.

“Masaki…I know we’d get you…”, a voice said. Aiba turned around and saw the face of the former Johnny member. His eyes were sparkling and an evil smirk surrounded his lips. Aiba stepped back and leaned against the wall. He was caught, there was no way to escape and before he could scream or do anything, he felt a punch in his face and he tasted the blood in his mouth.

Aiba woke up early in the morning hours and breathed in deeply. It was only a dream, he was save, and no one would hurt him anymore.

First he didn’t know where he was right now. It took him some time to remember that he wasn’t in hospital anymore but at Jun’s place. He tried to sit up, but every single move hurt him. The wound on his chest was burning like fire and it hurt terribly. He tried to stand up and stumbled a bit, because his cycle was still weak. He sat down again before he made a second try and got up. He tried to find hold on the armrest and closed his eyes, breathing in and out deeply. He touched his chest because of pain and some tears came up in his eyes.

It was like his brain switched off in this moment, when he took his pillow and walked out of the sleeping room. He saw Jun sleeping on the couch, his head somewhere under the pillow, one arm was hanging down on the floor the other one lied on the backrest. Aiba walked up to the couch and pulled on the sleeve of Jun’s shirt.

Jun woke up and winced when he saw the other one standing behind the couch. Aiba looked at him with teary eyes and he looked somehow lost.

“What happened? Everything alright?”, Jun asked and sat up.

Aiba shook his head slightly and bit on the healthy part of his lip. “Everything hurt, my chest is burning and I can’t sleep”, he said and some tears came up again.

First Jun looked at him and it seemed he didn’t know what he should do now, till he finally pushed away his sleeve and pointed at the place next to him. Aiba knitted his eyebrows and didn’t know what Jun wanted to say.

“Come here and lie down, Masaki”, Jun said harshly and waited till Aiba walked around the couch, standing there and thinking what he should do.

“You woke me up and now I offer you my place, so come on”, Jun smiled slightly and pushed Aiba gently down on the couch. Aiba stumbled and sat down next to Jun, who took the pillow out of his hands and laid it next to his’. He lied down next to Jun and felt the other one throwing the sleeve above him. Jun put his hand on Aiba’s chest and let it resting there. He slowly stroke above it, but he tried not to touch him too hard, because he was afraid of hurting him much more.

Aiba breathed in deeply. The gentle touch of Jun let his pain disappearing and he felt his eyes got sleepy again, and after a while he fell asleep.

On the next morning Aiba woke up, and Jun was already gone. On the table was a short message that he’d be back soon, he just needed some things from the agency. Aiba tried to stand up, and the pain was better than the day before, but it wasn’t completely gone.

He couldn’t believe that he really walked up to Jun in the middle of the night and finally slept next to him on the couch. Aiba felt embarrassed, because it was like being a little crybaby and he really didn’t want to look like this.

Aiba walked up to the kitchen and opened the fridge. At least he wanted to make some breakfast for him and Jun, but there wasn’t enough food for both of them there, so Aiba decided to go to the supermarket.

He needed nearly half an hour till he was ready to go out, and left the building slowly. He stopped every now and then, because he felt exhausted and it took him energy to walk to the market.

Aiba stopped immediately and his heart beat faster, he wanted to run away when he saw them walking up to him, staring at him, and he saw the evil smile and sparkling eyes resting on him, but his legs didn’t move a single millimeter.

“Masaki”, Jun screamed and started to run.

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