yukitsubute: (Default)
Hello everyone,

how are you doing? I hope everything is alright? 

It's so hot in my country at the moment, but it's summer after all, right? =) 

I have one week to go till I'll have two weeks of holiday again *yeahhh* and I have a lot of timefor writing at the moment. <3 That's makes me much happier :D :D 

I finished a short multi chapter based on a wish meme prompt from [personal profile] kittykaty <3 and I finished the poll story. My exchange story is also almost done and I started writing another multi, but I am not sure how it'll go on *lol* 

I will finish posting my Sakumoto multi till the end of the next week and I want to finish one of the other two before I'll start posting something new. :) 

What are you writing at the moment? And are there some more Aiba centric stories somehwere out there, which are going to be posted any time soon? (because I already suffer of the lack of Aiba centric stories :( ) 

Have a nice weekend,

yukitsubute: (Arashi  band)
Hello my friends,

how are you doing out there? Summer comes closer and the weather gets hot again. Here at my place it's raining almost every day oO That sucks a little, but I have to learn for my second exam at work. >< So it's not that bad that we don't have 30 degree and the perfect weather to spend the whole day in a pool ;)

Have you seen that the Arashi exchange runs again? Do you join? I already signed up <3 You can find it here, if you are interested: [livejournal.com profile] arashi_exchange

I am totally in writing mood now, so I'll go and write some one shots and multi chapters today :D

I hope you have a nice weekend <3

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Hello everyone,

how are you doing out there? I hope everything is alright?

Finally, finally, I had the last day in my old company and on Monday starts a new life for me. I am already excited about it. It's a total new work for me, and I really have to learn a lot during the next 3 years, but that's okay :)

In my free time I am totally into watching series right now :) I just finished the first season of white collar, and I really totally love it :D

I try to find my writing muse again, but somehow it doesn't work out. I think of dropping my multi chapter "aurora borealis". I don't know if you are still interested in it, or if it's okay to drop it?
And I have some troubles with my other multi chapter too. I think I'll only post finished stories in future. It's a little "writing-mood-killer" if there are only a tiny few readers online. I know I can't drop the second multi, because it's a gift, but I honestly thought about it. ><

I try to collect ideas for future projects, though. What do you think about an Aimiya multi Chapter? Is there anyone interested in this pairing?

I have the slight feeling that Aiba pairings aren't really popular right now? Aren't there Aiba readers out there? Or are you all hiding somehwere?

Today I saw that the [livejournal.com profile] smut_meme started again :) Have you requested something? I thought of writing something for it, but I am not sure which one ;) Maybe I wait a little longer to see which requests will come :D

I hope you have a nice weekend,


yukitsubute: (Arashi  band)
Hello my friends out there,

how are you doing? I hope everyone is alright?

I know I wasn't online pretty much during the last weeks. >< I had a rather busy time at work. I am goign to change my work place in May, so I was kind of busy organizing everything yesterday, and I really waited a long time to get the information that I passed the interview. This were the hardest weeks to wait for the positive answer from my new work place. I really searched long till I find something new, and now, finally, I found something new. :D

I am really happy that it's getting spring now. It's already a little warmer outside and I could start driving with my bycicle again :D I lost around 50 pounds during the last months, but now I am totally stuck and no matter what I do I don't loose any weight. And I feel like I can eat the whole day without any break :( That's not so nice.

I hardly did something concerning fandom during the last weeks. the only thing I started was writing the little birthday present for lilly0, but I can't talk about it by now, because it should be a present, and she doesn't know what she'll get. :P

I am recently back on Netflix again and started watching Sleepy Hollow and the sixth season of Walking dead. I really became a tv series junkie *lol* Did you see those series? Or which one do you watch on tv? Do you have any recommendations for me??

So, I will jump to bed now, tomorrow is a new working day and Easter will be on this weekend, so there is a loooooooot to do in my job. (Just one month till I am finally able to change, I'll make it :P)

Have a nice day my dear friends,

yukitsubute: (Arashi  band)
Hello everyone,

how are you out there? I hope everyone had a nice start into 2016?

I can't imagine I survived the Christmas time at work. It was terrible stressful and really nerve wrecking sometimes. But now it's getting calmer again. We had inventory today - so I had to work on Sunday too. It was really hard work and now I am totally spent - but it's okay.

I am in a bad psychic conditiion right now, my winter depressions mixed with my anxiety disorder makes my life quite hard right now. -.-# I try working on it, but it's not really easy to handle. There are days I feel really good and everything's perfect, but that can change in between seconds. I just hope the best to get rid of it soon, though I know it's a pretty long way to go.

Yesterday I was shopping with my mother, it was really nice. Last time I enjoyed shopping was 8 years ago. I lost 23 kilo (around 50 pounds) during the last months, so I don't have many clothes which fit me now :D

So my plans for 2016 is to find another job, loose another 15 kilo (aorund 30 pounds), go on holiday and get my life in a good direction again ;)

When I returned to fandom I didn't want to write any multi Chapter anymore, but now I changed my mind and started with a new one. :)
It's a host story with Aiba as centric. I know it seems to be pretty dark and angsty, but I promise that it isn't ;)
You can read it here:
Aurora borealis Prolog   Chapter 1

If you are interereste: I also posted a JunBa and Ohmiya .

Have a nice evening, morning, or good night to you all over the world,

yukitsubute: (Arashi  band)
Hello everyone out there,

how are you all doing? I hope you are all okay?

  • What are you doing right now?

I am still on holiday, so I am pretty fine. :D I am at home till next week Thursday, so that's really cool. I totally try to relax now, because I don't have any holiday till March next year. Yeah, working in a bookstore means: Christmas-shopping-madness. I am not really prepared to this, but I know that will be my last year doing this. I love the work with books, but I hate selling them, and I really don't get used to the shifts. So I try changing my life again. Therefore I will have a job interview in October, and I am really a little bit afraid, because I need to pass a test, and I really am not afraid of the language part of the test, but there will be a bigger part maths and logical thought. I didn't need that kind of maths since ages. That's why I have to learn again....yeahhh or so...
But I really want to change the job, so there is no other way.

Next to my work I am still teaching my refugees, and that is really something I enjoy doing. I know that especially in my country are many xenophobic people, but thank god not everyone. ^^ I know some of you aren't from Europe, and I don't know how many news you get what's going on in Europe? It's really a horrible situation, but I am glad that I can do at least a tiny bit good here. Like a friend of mine said: We can't change the world, but we can do the best to make it at least a bit better. :)
For me it was a total new experience to get to know my students (who are all over 30 ;)) They are all Syrians, and they came here some months ago. I don't want to write down what they told me about their escape, but it made me realize that I really have a good life. Even though I know I shouldn't compare that, but in the end I do. :D
And for me it was really interesting to get to know another religion, especially because they are really religious, and I ...yeah....am not....

  • What else is going on?

I am on a birthday party with my father tomorrow, and we both have absolute no motivation to go there ;P We already tried to make an escape plan, but in the end we need to go there. I hope there'll be good food. ;)

And I watch "The walking dead" right now....oh gosh, don't eat while watching this!!! Really, it's extreme disgusting, but the series is really, really, cool. I totally love it (when I don't eat....) I wasn't a fan of the videogame, but I can really recommend that!

  • And what's with fandom?

I am writing my kink table right now. At least I try ;) I have some private projects too. And I have a question to you: I write a quite long story, and I am not sure what to do....shall I post it as one shot, or part it in chapters? What do you think? Do you want to read something really long at once, or in parts?

And because JunBa needs really more love I posted a one shot, HERE

I heard the Ohno rumors of course, who didn't? I realy laughed so hard. I read some comments on that. Honestly? Are some fans nuts? He is a 35 year old man, gosh, he shall go out, live his life, enjoy his life, have sex with whome he wants to. I think that's cool. <3 (Just that the photo was really not good....I thought: Ohno has 100kg on the first one...) Some around believe that he would stand in front of their door one day? Wake up people....and those who think he belongs to Nino....yeah, I pity you.

And I think I didn't say something about Taichi till now? Yeahhhhhhhh sooo cool, I am so happy for him, because he waited so long for that. <3 <3 <3 I hope he'll have a nice wedding and I wish them all the best. <3

So, I think that's enough from me,

have a nice weekend out there,

yukitsubute: (Arashi  band)
Hello everyone,

rambling )

I hope you all are doing good, have a nice evening


Feb. 21st, 2013 08:54 am
yukitsubute: (Books)
Hello my friends!
It's been a while since I was online here, and maybe you are wondering where I am. So here is my explanation for what's happening in my life.

I want to take a break from fandom, and I want to cut my fandom time completely for now. I realized that this thing here took me so much time that I forgot how to live a real life. I was too addicted to this stuff, and every talk with friends, almost every freetime I was spending on fandom. It's not that I didn't enjoy it, but it's way too much. I forgot how many hobbies I had before fandom, and since I am working and I find new friends, I got to know how nice it feels to go out more often.

I really got to know a lot of nice people here, and I found real good friends, and I hope we can stay in contact, but I won't be online on Lj anymore. I don't know if I will come back some day, maybe I will, because I still like J-pop, but I won't be a fangirl like I was during the last years anymore. Lj and everything around JE fandom pulled me in a world, which doesn't exist. It was a nice flee from problems and real life issues, it was a nice thing to stop thinking about real problems, but I need to face some not so nice facts of my life, otherwise I will never manage it to get back to a normal life.

When I realized how  much time fandom took me, I couldn't believe it. All the talks with friends about JE, all the evenings with concerts, the music I listened to, checking Lj, writing, reading etc. everything contained fandom, and that was almost the whole freetime I spent with it. I remembered the hobbies and interests I had before JE, and I was shocked. I cut off everything else from my life. I realized that I lost a lot of friends, because I didn't call them or met with them.

So with that I will say goodbye from here, maybe I am coming back, but I can't and don't want to promise it. I will check some dorama things from time to time, because it's one of the few things I can imagine to come back for, and for some new concert releases, but I won't be active anymore. (It's my opinion for now, and maybe it will change, but for now I can't imagine it) And for now I am even not online anymore. As I said, fandom is no part of my life right now, and it will be like this till I have the feeling that it starts being a normal hobby again, and no obsession.

If you want to stay in contact, you can always write me a mail at yukitsubute@gmail.com. As I said, I cut off Lj and fandom for some time, but I don't want to cut off all the nice people I met here.

I wish you all the best, and take care of you, and don't get lost in this internet world!!